i concur

Balance. It's hard for me to think of any think that brings me more peace than a clean life that is balanced in all areas. Surprisingly enough... I feel like I have achieved this lately- feels good.

SO along those lines I read this talk tonight and felt like it was a good thing hear. I hadn't heard the term "consecrated life" before.

Anyways. Check it out... if you want.

Here's a tid bit I particularly enjoyed.

"By work we sustain and enrich life. It enables us to survive the disappointments and tragedies of the mortal experience. Hard-earned achievement brings a sense of self-worth. Work builds and refines character, creates beauty, and is the instrument of our service to one another and to God. A consecrated life is filled with work, sometimes repetitive, sometimes menial, sometimes unappreciated but always work that improves, orders, sustains, lifts, ministers, aspires."


I'd never thought of work as creating beauty. Makes sense. I like it.

BY who?

Oh my goodness. It's raining outside today. (not inside, thank goodness.) which I love. And I'm like being all reflectatory and thinkatory. I for whatever reason, feel a need to explain my BYU decision. If to anyone, to myself. Because I'm scared! Because I'm going to move away from the place I know and the place where I grew up and faced so many heartbreaks and trials and learned so many lessons. The place where I struggled to figure out my beliefs and myself and life. I hope that I understand these things when I'm the new land of Provo.

But here's one reason why I'm ultimately going. The tipping point reason if you may. It's based on a simple conviction I have that Jake taught me a long time ago. He probably doesn't even remember but I do. He told me that when doors are opened to you, you should always take that opportunity because it will lead to future opportunities. It will lead to future doors being opened. BYU is a great school. Saying no to this opportunity, would be saying no to a lot of opportunities in the future.

So in the end, going to BYU scares the feaij;i;ao out of me. I will miss Logan's charm. (I do not include Logan winters in this category) I will miss the friends and the stunning fall days and roommates and the wonderful blue color on the walls of Old Main 225. Logan holds a deeply special place in my heart. But all though leaving hurts and feels hard. BYU feels right. And it's hard to argue with that one.

sitting in the liberry eatin muh soup.

Come to the liberry on Thursdays and get the tomato bisque soup. They only have it on Thursdays. All the other day's soups are splendid as well though. Anyways, when you get this particular tomato bisque soup you are going to die of YUMNESS....and if you ask me, what better death could there be than a death by yumness? None better death is the correct answer. --- Only get a small though. It's super rich. There's a dash of roasted red pepper in it as well. TO DIE FOR YUMNESS FOR.

Sitting here studying how to factor irrational polynomials this conversation ensues behind my back by the staircase. 

Boy 1: Girls you have? You have girls lately?

Boy 2: Well, I mean, I guess, like sort of. She lives in bountiful. TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK TALK. Her name is Sarah. I just don't know like I want to call her and I want to text her, but how much is too much texting and how much is not enough and we held hands on our last date so clearly things are getting serious and clearly she is head over heals for me but her sister is coming to her house this weekend so she can't go out and next weekend she has some really legitimate excuse as well but despite these things I know she loves me and especially likes the name Claire for our first child as much as I do anyways I don't know where things are going with her although as I've exemplified I'm sure their going great places and I should really take a breathe because this is a long sentence but if things don't go as well with her as am sure they will then..

Boy 1: Then....

Boy 2: Well you know one time this girl saw me wearing a marathon shirt and said, oh you run marathon's? Me too. So we went on a date. I mean, she never talked to me again but it got me thinking...

Boy 1: Oh boy, do tell! What did this get you thinking of??!

Boy 2: It got me thinking that DID YOU KNOW YOU CAN theoretically just go up to girls and ask them out without knowing them?

Boy 1: Well, yes.

Boy 2: I don't think this is always the best approach though because that could be awkward.

Boy 1: Clearly.

Boy 2: Ya but you could go up to that girl(me) and ask her out. I mean what's the worst that could happen? She punches you in the face?

Yes. Unless you're wearing a marathon shirt of course. 

Wisdom came into my life today. But mostly I'm thinking the whole time; OH MY GOSH YOU GUYS ARE SO ANNOYING THAT IS WHAT IS GOING THROUGH MY HEAD RIGHT NOW. But then, I overheard Boy 2 say that he ran marathons and I was thinking, wow I'd really love to go on a date with him.

p as in pneumonia.

I went for a lovely (coughy-weezy) run up the river trail by second dam today.
Gorgeous day.
Peaceful run.
Cough for 60 years afterwards.

Ate rotten cantaloupe.

I've made my decision.
I am also not telling anyone what it is yet.
Maybe I'm not so sure in it yet?
Who knoweth?

Studied Isaiah, Ezekiel, Job, Amos, and Jeremiah for 4 hours today.
Ask me if I hated every second of it?
Do you know  who was called as a prophet with 4 beasts.
Oh you better believe I do.

Blop!

Back in Logan.
-Hey Logan I've missed you!

Wal-mart: Main street in Logan: 11:00 PM, 10-17-10
-I don't know WHY I'm surprised by this but most kids my age are like, doing something cooler than grocery shopping at this time on a Saturday night. I don't even care though, because look what's going to be on the table tomorrow:

Best ever. I'm also now the proud mother of a WOK. I think we'll have lots of sweet adventures together.

Other walmart observations:

I'm mostly completely positive that I saw the kids from "The Outsiders" gang banging up the store. They suck at stealing things though because they were all wearing stupid denim jackets and zitty faces and skater shoes. FOR GROSS IS WHAT THEY WERE. If they are going to steal stuff POWER TO THEM (only... not really) but I wish they'd just steal something stylish so they didn't look so lamers. 

Don't go to Wal-Mart at this time if you hope to find good Zucchini. You won't.

Go to Wal-Mart at this time if you like overly friendly workers desperately hoping that you need help finding the correct lamp shade. + who are creepy. 

I'm tired. BUT HEY LOOK WHAT I DID LAST WEEK! Totes fun but totes freezing. I hope to be a sailor when I grow up. Sexy.

Thomas Jefferson on the Economics of Ideas

"He who receives an idea from me, receives instruction himself without lessening mine; as he who lights his taper at mine, receives light without darkening me. That ideas should freely spread from one to another over the globe....seems to have been peculiarly and benevolently designed by nature, when she made them... incapable of confinement or exclusive appropriation."

more importantly though...

you don't have a soul,

you are a soul.

you have a body.

- c.s. Lewis