what is happening to me!

I'm so happy it hurts.
Life is so wonderful! - I went Latin dancing tonight. I was one of like 3 white people. 'Twas so fun and hilarious and incomprehensibly confusing.

love.

oh just a ridin through da semetary... seminary?... cemetery!

I love everyone and everything in the world.

so much. SOOOOO so much.

There have been so many surprises along the way but i feel like I'm becoming the woman I want to be through these experiences. I'm being shaped and molded and it's so exciting feeling so much hope. I'm not afraid. There are so many possibilities for my life right now. It's so exciting. I'm just cherishing every moment. Living with no regrets. I tell people I love that I love them. Without fear. Without expectations. I feel blessed and wonderful.

In fact. I'm feeling positively BLISSED on this memorial day.

Peace.

that's not what i meant to say

Today at the corn stand, some guy said sorry for taking advantage of me because he was taking a bunch a samples. I told him he could take advantage of me any time. AWKWARD!

Sorry man, really sorry.

today hey hey hey

so. i work at corn STAND baby.

i love it.

is that clear? I LOVE IT.

i was born to stand with corn.

lemme tell ya.

today was my first day and i must right down a few silly things.

FIRST OFF... who has awesome first days at work? ya me neither, but TODAY WAS AWESOME. and so funny.

i just... love jobs where i get to talk to people and laugh.

i love jobs where my high pitched baby voice emerges out of no where when talking to customers.HA ok. not. but i feel like i've found the perf perf summer job.

i don't know where to begin?

this morning a woman pulled up with 6 puppies on her lap and asked for freeeeee corn... um. NO?

later on in the day a car for of high school boys asked me for my number.

A. if you want my number, get out of the car and then we'll talk.

B. No.

C. i told them i didn't have a phone... while it was in my hand.

a few minutes later, two 19 year old boys popped out of... like... the womb of mother wal-mart and just wanted... i don't know. they just kept talking. dudes- tatoos: not cool. bleached hair: less cool. go away. but really, don't because let's face it. working at a corn stand wouldn't be the same without you:)

as if the day couldn't get any weirder a guy... get this.. WITH A CAMO HAT ON.. pulls up on his bike... as in bicycle.

like, first off... how is he going to carry the corn? that's right. he's not. he proceeds to make conversation and then out of no where is like "Wow, your teeth are pretty... they are SOOO WHITE." and then just awkwardly leaves.

uhhhhhhhhh ok?

haha i love life.

MORAL OF THE STORY: where a turtleneck whilst working the corn stand.

also... i attended my first ZUMBA class tonight, and i do believe i am a life time fan:)

meh.

I have truly never felt better.

Here's to life:)

give me more bruschetta.

last night ffff and i wanted to ride our bikes to IDAHO.
unfortunately it was windy and snowing and awful weather.
i don't know about you, but who wants to ride to IDAHO in that crap?
SO INSTEAD we had a feast. it was tasty tasty

feta bruschetta

tortellini with garlic onion sauce

roasted asparagus

roasted zucchini

all while listening to

Luciano Pavarotti

(which is a given i think.)

AND...

did i mention we topped it off with strabrerry shortcake?

NOW we're really going to have to ride our bikes to idaho.

after dinner we made silly faces.

mulan.

When I was like 8 years old I did this dance to the song reflections from Mulan. It was super inspirational and artistic. We spun around holding cosmetic mirrors and stared deep into our own eyes.  It was beauty. There is nothing like staring deep into your own eyes while wearing sequins. But, you know, I think there was something in it. In the words of Christina Aguilera, I must ask,
who is that girl i see staring straight, back at me? More reflective words have never been uttered. It's all very cheesy, believe me, I understand. But as this semester and school year come to a close, I can't help but reflect on myself and the tremendous lessons I've learned. I really feel like a different person. So I do believe it's my time to put on my sequin dress (I hope it still fits) and take a look at myself.

I've learned so much. I've come so far.
I've learned that people will surprise you... And I mean in a good way. I've been amazed at the goodness around me. My expectations are always exceeded.
I've learned that I am capable of more than I would have given myself credit for.
I've learned to appreciate life in all it's frailty-to take every opportunity that comes my way and to try and learn new things. Learning to ski may well be one of my most cherished fruits of the year. No... not cherished fruits... that sounds super lame. Why do these cheesy odd lines plague me?
      I've learned a lot about fear. What a fiend fear can be. Slowly over the course of the year, I've learned to replace fear and trepidation with something a lot more peace giving and worthwhile-faith. I'm so overwhelmingly HAPPY that my faith is deeper than ever. I've come to understand that faith takes work. What I've learned for myself (finally!) is that faith isn't about asking- it's about giving it your all and knowing that somehow, your all will be enough. That everything will work out. I'm so happy to say that I have strong beliefs, and that this year has really given me a chance to understand my fears and have countless prayers answered. I can't find a word to describe how AWESOME/GREAT/perfect/MAGNIFICENT/SPLENDID/beautifulydelightfulyDIVINE this is.
 I've learned about persistence. About the satisfaction of sticking things out.
I've learned that nobody is perfect- and that is OKAY.
I've learned to appreciate good friends.
I've learned that I ramble a lot and that this post should probably be continued another day...